Was it Love?

Was that real love? So quick to fall. The thing that he dispose of. I fell, what I thought was green grass, it was all his spell. I saw beauty, he was to keep me safe, that was his duty. To keep me awake, When all I wanted to do was break. He was to never forsake or make a mistake. Comfort when I had a stomach ache. God started to pour in, Showing me the wrong way I have been. My heart was broken, But yet I was woken. I just wanted him to understand my feelings, how I thought these worldly things are so unappealing. He didn't take it right, we started to fight. I thought I could fix it, I broke under the weight I'd have to admit. I fall to my face. Begging for Gods Grace. God I can't do it on my own, feelings of the unknown. Stay with me until I fall asleep, touch me when I start to weep. Tell me it's alright, let me sleep through this night. My heart is breaking. Aching. Boy you were my air when I felt like I couldn't breathe. You were my smile when I all I wanted do is cry. Where are you now? They tell me to forget, how? I used to hold your hand, walking in peace, now I just don't understand. I don't sleep. Just crying in bed, grabbing my head, it was all those things you said. Insomnia. All I want to tell you is that everythings okay. I know I am away. Don't try to fill my place, it's God you need to embrace. No girl is ever going to help you. I lay in my darkest nights just screaming out to God. Only praying for you. Holding my breath. Hoping you will call out his name. Getting rid of this death. The road your leading down will only give you more heartache. Understand me. Iv always had your best interest. Never fooling you. Iv never broken a promise. Remember that. It wasn't my fault you fell flat.