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Do you think it could be something that I have done? Maybe my mistakes that are coming back to a haunting realization. I bet its my mind that wont give up on the fact that I will always be like this, with a condition that makes my body hurt so bad. A condition, an existing state that cant, wont ever change. It takes everything in me not to just give up. All you can do is pray, they say. I just need to truly find myself in Christ. Blood racing, pumping hard.